Motherhood
The Amazing and crazy thing about motherhood is that you can feel your children when they aren’t there. I can be going through my day and suddenly feel disquieted in my heart, listless, lost, sad, or anxious. Thinking about what’s wrong will pretty quickly determine if it is a feeling born of my current circumstances or simply a gnawing feeling without a clear source. When the kids were small I could easily see what was up by looking for them to find and correct the issue. Now that they are older, often not at home, and some living away from home, it’s not so easy. I would find myself wandering around with this feeling I couldn’t shake – frustrated and frequently unproductive.
Now I stop immediately and pray. I pray for my kids. Sometimes I have an idea which one it is; other times I don’t. But eventually, I either see them and find out or they call and I can relax. Their pressing issue may be stressful but not knowing is overpowering. Motherhood – how amazing is it that God created us to always have a piece of our children permanently inside us and that our very DNA can tell us when something is wrong?!
He Hears Us
I thought about this today as my bible reading was in Romans 8. Verses 26 and 27 speak about how God hears our groans and the holy spirit intercedes on our behalf even when we can not speak or do not know the words, I have always loved these verses because I have often felt tongue-tied in difficult situations. And, I have not always been great at expressing my feelings or emotions. So, this verse resonated with me. Today, however, I began to understand it quite differently. I know when my children are hurting even when I’m not there. As a mother, God created me to hold the DNA of my children in my body and brain even after they are birthed. We are connected on a cellular level.
So too with God. We are connected to Him on a cellular level and he feels our pain, or sorrow, our joy, and our fears. How awesome is that! We don’t need to say a word and He knows. He hears our groaning. He hears us. Neither height, nor depth, nor angels, nor principalities nor anything on heaven and earth can separate us from the love of God our savior and I feel that.
It’s In The DNA
God isn’t sitting by some cosmic computer screen monitoring the earth. He isn’t scanning from side to side when He might miss something or have His back turned when we need Him most. We are a part of Him – we are His creation. It’s in the DNA. He knows our hearts even better than when I can feel my own children miles away. What an amazing God we have!
So Pray
The frustrating part about being human is that while I can feel them, I don’t know what they need. That is why I started praying when I feel that indeterminate anxiety that comes with knowing your kids need help and are not near you. So it’s a great relief when I get that phone call or see them to find out what’s going on. God, however, knows everything. So pray! He hears you. He hears us when we tell Him exactly what we need and He knows when we have no idea what to say. So pray. He hears us. What will you pray about today?
